Sometimes, I feel like I’m being stretched too thin. My life as if threading on thin ice, if breaks, I will plunge into depression. Sometimes thinking too much about keeping it together gives me a painful headache. 

Talking about my feelings does not help. The only thing that works is to distract myself by throwing myself into piles of work, to stop thinking about you. Whenever I do, I feel sharp pains in my chest, too painful to bear. 

I need to come to terms. That is what I must do. 

Until we meet again.